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Someone Dances

Dance, dance wherever you may be, for I am the Lord of the dance, said He.
– ancient song

Someone dances all completely still
Someone dances all childlike and playful
Someone dances all electric flash
Someone dances all touching the ground
Someone dances all self-conscious
Someone dances on without any reason
Someone dances so peaceful and easy
Someone dances with hair all crazy
Someone dances in a lonely moment
Someone dances in God consciousness
Someone dances with very much caring
Someone dances so inspired and joyous
Someone dances on faith alone
Someone dances all nameless and wandering
Someone dances in flowing beauty
Someone dances all forgotten and naked
Someone dances all lost for words
Someone dances all completely dance

-John Fox

 

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Kick it up!

a male figure from behind as they dance down the middle of a street

Photo by Andre Hunter on Unsplash

 

Because in these next 24 hours, you are FREEEEEEEEE!

This weekend is full of energy, my beautiful beasts. Friday was the 13th- often attributed to bad things (go look up ‘triskaidekaphobia’) and horror movies- is actually a day full of feminine energy. Both Venus and Freya are associated with Friday and the number 13 is connected with the lunar year (13 cycles) and is associated with death, rebirth, and creation- all realms deeply connected to the feminine.

I celebrated the feminine energy by watching Footloose (the original, the only, from 1984) with my family. You might not think that’s a very feminine movie, but it’s about dancing. We often associate dancing rituals with women, but of course that’s not the whole truth. Men dance, too. I was reminded how important dance is to men and to connecting with other humans. (I wrote some ideas about that, here.) And I also felt really grateful that I grew up with films like this, where men were not afraid of their sensuality, or of dance. Putting those things in your psyche, in the psyche of the collective, is important- it makes men who dance feel ‘normal.’ And we need that.

Footloose had a big impact on me, seeded many things in my own psyche. I was 10 when I saw the movie and five years later bought red boots just like Ariel had in the movie. They symbolized freedom and rebellion to me. I had a lot of years to go before I actually rebelled, but those boots were part of my identity and I was reminded of that on Friday.

I was also reminded of what a great soundtrack that film had- it’s listed at the end with some notes. I pulled out the CD and listened to it on repeat today. Good memories and good music.

So, it isn’t just Friday the 13th that’s happening this weekend. Mercury in retrograde ends tonight. And I could not be happier. I mean, I learned a lot. I actually feel like a combination of a butterfly and a supersonic jet leaving a cage at Mach 1, but I’m glad to see this phase come to an end. (And sorry to be vague, but I’ll talk more about that soon. I have some things to finish first. I will just say: some stuff got real clear and I’m making choices in alignment with that clarity.)

And that means you have a clear 24 hours until the new moon in Aries tomorrow night. I’ll put up some info about that tomorrow. Apparently, it means focused changes. I am ready for that.

But this is just to say: with Mercury in retrograde settling down (there is still a bit of the energy left for the next couple of weeks, but much less intense) and the new moon not quite yet here, we have a place to breath and ground and center in our true selves. Take it and run with it.

How? Be kind and gentle with yourself over the next 24 hours. If you’ve been dealing with something hard, let go a little bit and relax. If things have shifted, or you know they need to, hold on to that knowledge, but take a break. Do something fun. Get outside (if the weather isn’t shit). Breathe and nap and read and chill. And maybe dance a little. Let the space of this next day feel wide and deep and let yourself be held by it. Be a little footloose and fancy free.

More tomorrow!

Big love,
Joanna :: xoxo

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Footloose | Kenny Loggins

Put on your red boots and go for it.

 

Let’s Hear It For the Boy | Deniece Williams

God bless Willard. He has the courage to change.

 

Almost Paradise | Mike Reno + Ann Wilson

I swear that I can see forever in your eyes.
[You know who you are.]

 

Holding Out for a Hero | Bonnie Tyler

Where have all the good men gone?
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the streetwise Hercules to fight the rising odds?

Not that I need saving. This song makes a girl thirsty, though.

 

Dancing In the Sheets | Shalamar

Love is always born on a chance
So wrap around me and baby let’s dance

Mmmm….yes.

 

I’m Free (Heaven Helps A Man) | Kenny Loggins

Looking into your eyes I know I’m right
If there’s anything worth my love it’s worth a fight
We only get one chance
But nothing ties our hands

I fight for what I love and desire.
And heaven will help a gal who fights her fears.

 

Somebody’s Eyes | Karla Bonoff

It’s part of the soundtrack (meh).

 

The Girl Gets Around | Sammy Hagar

She knows what she likes
I got what she needs
And one of these nights
We’ll both make our moves
We’ll cover some ground

Weirdly, this song, and the movie, have made me think more deeply about what I’m telling my son about dating. I am encouraging dating before sex (I always did, but I’m more committed to that as the standard for him now than before). Because how else do you know someone really wants you (and not just an orgasm)? You gotta date ’em. Go to dinner, just the two of you. Go to the movies. Hold hands. Make out in the car. Let desire build, see how they want to connect outside of sex, see if they’re into you. Play games (until you don’t anymore), but date first. Anticipation makes for better sex anyhow.

 

Never | Moving Pictures

You can never never never ever hide your heart
Don’t you ever ever ever ever try
If you don’t give your heart wings you’ll
Never never never ever fly

So much truth here. Don’t hide your heart. It may get broken, but let it fly. That’s really the only way to live and love and learn.

 

 

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The sensuality of softness

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Oh, ya’ll. It has been a week of intensity and today we turn the corner on this phase of Mercury in retrograde. That is- we’re half way through it (YAY!) and so we just have to travel the other half until April 14th and we’re out. Usually I sail through MiR like a champ but this one is dragging me low and kicking my ass. Yesterday was particularly tough and I had to dance my way out of a crappy belief, a nasty mood, and a crying jag.

In response, because today is the half way point, I’m turning towards softness. Calm things. Quiet things. Nourishment in simple things. I forget that sensuality isn’t all bright red, warm velvet, sexy, skin-slipping splendor. It is also softness. I keep a Pinterest board to remind myself what that feels like to me, and today I needed that reminder. So here’s what’s on tap for today, in mood and action.

It’s snowing and raining so it’s a blanket fort kind of day.
Favorite old books.
Hot tea and cookies.
If there is sex, it will be slow (so slow) and under lots of covers.
Skin on skin with no ambition is also fine.
Doing that thing where our hands just twist around each other. Touch.
Staring out the window and just breathing.
Short naps, curled up like a ball.
Soup and sandwich.
Resting.
No music, at least for a bit.
Hugs and snuggling [get closer, please].
Fat pillows in the corner of the couch.
Letting the chair hold you.
Daydreaming.

A Short Playlist for Soft Days

The Planets Bend Between Us | Snow Patrol

When I’m Thinking About You | The Sundays

Wild Horses | The Sundays

Crack the Shutters Open Wide | Snow Patrol
[if your partner can’t be silly, sensual, and want to learn you like this, maybe you need a better lover. plenty of good matches are made from practicality, but there has to be some magic.]

Puff The Magic Dragon | Peter, Paul & Mary

Somewhere Over the Rainbow | Israel Kamakawiwoʻole

New Soul | Yael Naim

 

Softness: I Need To Cry Add-on Pack

Sign Your Name | Terence Trent D’Arby

Hands to Heaven | Breathe

 

Softness: Lift Me Up Add-on Pack

Stand By You | Pretenders

A Sky Full of Stars | Coldplay

 

Be warm + kind + soft today, lovers.
Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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mood :: i wish i could speak like music

You get a double post today because I am in a mood.

I am tired of hypocrites. [even though I, too, sometimes do hypocritical things.]
I am tired of those who will not look at their darkness
I am tired of what may be worse yet :: to look at darkness and refuse to engage with it
I am tired of guns and violence [even though I am sometimes violent and born to a violent culture.]
I am very tired of inequality. Very tired.
I am tired of willful ignorance. [it is not even ignorance; it is stupidity.]
I am tired of needless death and suffering.
I am tired of needless death and suffering.

And yet.

All I want in this moment, in this mood
Is to sit with someone
chest to chest
and feel the warmth of their beautiful human body

I want to look into their eyes
and smile
and cry
and let all the love that is within me
vibrate into them

To cup their face in my hands
And kiss their uglybeautiful soul
with my eyes
my smile
my lips

In this mood of darkness
all I want
is to set love free.

 

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Perhaps Hafiz said it better.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – –

I wish I could speak like music.

I wish I could put the swaying splendor
Of the fields into words

So that you could hold Truth
against your body
and dance.

I am trying the best I can
With this crude brush, this tongue,

To cover you with light.

I wish I could speak like divine music.

I want to give you the sublime rhythms
of this earth and the sky’s limbs

As they joyously spin and surrender,
surrender
Against God’s luminous breath.

Hafiz wants you to hold me
Against your precious
body

And dance,
Dance.

| Hafiz |

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A similar mood. Because I need the way this feels tonight. [just tell me I’m good enough]

Sarah McLaughlin in the way only she can say it:

Just let me try
and I will be good to you

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I love you all, fellow travelers. May we be very good to each other, may we love as much as we can, even in our anger, even in our fear, even in our weariness.

Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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On Repeat

Ya’ll I was downloading some music this weekend and realized I did not create ANY playlists for myself in 2017. What. The. Fuck.

I date and name my playlists and there were none for 2017. Granted, it was a tough year. And I didn’t download much music- I needed my old favorites. But music is a source of so much joy and creativity for me, I was really stunned by the fact that I didn’t make any playlists last year.

So.

Since it’s my last day of being 42, I got a little playlist por moi and por vou. It’s the stuff I’ve had playing on hard repeat (meaning, 20 times in a row or more) for the last few months. They say INFJ’s like to do that- play a song on hard repeat- but it’s not usually my style. I guess I’m changing.

Here’s what’s been keeping me musical company.

Intro | The xx

This track is only 2:07 minutes long, but I could listen to it on repeat for a good long time (which is basically what the people in the link did- awesome). The rest of the album I don’t care for. The Intro, though- yum.

 

Into the Ocean | Blue October

When toxic masculinity gets you down and you want to commit suicide- that’s what this song is about. Only it’s the loveliest way to say those things (almost Alt-J levels of wordsmithing). Let the rain come down. (Also: dude’s eye makeup is sexy af.)

 

On and On | Stephen Bishop

For three weeks I was all “…she just keeps on tryin’ and she smiles when she feels like crying…on and on…” This song is an aspirin when your heart aches.

 

On the Dark Side | John Cafferty & The Beaver Brown Band

Played this 15 times in a row while I emptied the dishwasher and moshed at the same time. (It can be done. Don’t break the dishes.) ‘She’ll never know just how I feel…slip to the dark side, across that line.’ I’m gonna cross that line someday, I just know it.

 

Life is Beautiful | Vega 4

Soft and sweet. A good reminder that life is complicated but also so very beautiful. There are miracles.

 

Sunday cereal with iPod and insulin pump. A good life.

 

Tiny Dancer | Elton John

Who doesn’t want someone with pretty eyes and a pirate’s smile? Lovely. Always lovely.

 

Somebody Else | The 1975

This is one of the cruelest sentiments ever: I don’t want you, but I don’t want anyone else to have you, either. And yet, this song makes it sound palatable. I, myself, could never do that or claim that- I either want you or I don’t. But I get how it feels. The song is clearly a walk through bittersweetness, which is my favorite emotion, so it gets a pass on cruelty.

 

I Like Me Better | Lauv

This song is full on pop, but I really love it. It reminds me of when my husband and I were falling in love- he made me feel like I was my best self all the time, and that it was easy to stay there and be that way. When someone makes you feel like that- lit up, good, whole, accepted – don’t let them go. It doesn’t happen very often.

[For whatever reason, though, the energy of this song doesn’t belong to my ‘falling in love’ feelings. Some songs have people attached to them or ideas or information- this is what happens when you’re in touch with other realms. And when I spin in my whirling dervish ways to this song, the face of N always shows up. No idea why; I’m not calling him in. It’s just that his face is there when I open myself the alternate dimensions of the music. Weird, but true. If I had to guess, I’d say it was something to do with the energy of when we first met- in the summer; the image when I dance is always full of sun and his smile. Beyond that…I don’t know and I probably never will.]

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This is what has occupied my mind and heart for the last few months, loves. Hope you enjoy something here, too.

All my love,
Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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