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Learning to read again.

Hello, ya’ll! I know it’s been a bit of time. I’m sorry I haven’t had much to say here, but life has been busy and really good. And I figured I should post something before the new moon on Wednesday. So, here we are.

I have been learning to read tarot cards. Maybe as part of my witchy skillz, but maybe just because I find them a fascinating divination tool. Probably both. In any case, I’m learning a lot and having a lot of fun with it.

In the past I have used my iPod as a tool for divination. You can read about that in this post. And while you may find that weird or funny, it worked well for me for years. In talking with a spiritual guide, she said there was an old Greek divination practice of asking yourself a question that needed solving, and then heading to the marketplace for the day, noticing if there were any pieces of conversations you were drawn to, or words you heard repeatedly, perhaps sentences that seemed insightful to the question. And in that way, you found clues to your answer. I think my iPod oracle is sort of like that.

So, as I’ve been learning the tarot I sometimes check in with both tools- asking the same question- and seeing what the results are, how they differ from one another, and how they differ from the actual outcome. It’s kinda cool to watch and learn from.

I also sometimes work with oracle cards, which are not like tarot at all, but are a deck of cards with archetypal images that share some bit of truth to help guide you. There are literally hundreds of oracle decks which cover just about any topic you can think of: plant medicine, angels, the great mother, animals, feminism, crystals. Pick your pleasure, there is a deck of oracle cards for you. But they are not like tarot, which is a very particular set of cards with meanings that have not changed over the years. I like the power that resides in having millions of humans invest their energy in the tarot cards over the hundreds of years they have been around.

So, anyway…in my personal work, I draw one card from a very typical tarot deck (called the Rider-Waite deck). This deck I use for ‘daily’ kinds of questions. The cards feel very much like daily tools for asking and answering questions, seeking guidance, and just hanging with the energy of general life.

One day last week I drew the Five of Swords, reversed (when they show upside down, it’s called a ‘reversal’). I don’t typically use the cards as hard and fast rules about guidance or somehow knowing what’s ahead. They are more like energies I should be aware of, or be prepared to use, during that day. Sometimes it is totally spot on, and sometimes the card is only vaguely related to what happened. I think this is just because the tarot and I are getting acquainted. I hope the guidance will become clearer as time goes on.

 

The tarot card, The Five of Swords, upside down on a table with a candle and a bowl of salt

Five of Swords, reversed.

 

The Five of Swords, reversed is a reminder to step away from the conflict and drama; to accept loss with grace; and sometimes to understand that “all lies come out into the open.” For me, this was clear guidance to lay some groundwork on preparing my friends and family for my upcoming book. Two weeks ago I was granted a trademark on the phrase, “The Sex Surge” and my book should be coming out in late Oct/early Nov this year. And while I’ve not lied about things, I haven’t always told the whole truth, and now it’s definitely time to do that (I’ve had practice recently. The hubs got the whole, final download about 40s guy – there were 3 things I left out- and all the writing and emotions about 20s Guy. We had some things to discuss, but it all worked out well- see below). Knowing the truth is what actually protects our loved ones from harm.

So, you see how the tarot could be used as a guidance or divination system. Of course, sometimes what we perceive as ‘divination’ is also just us looking for confirmation of what we believe (called ‘confirmation bias’). I think that working with divination systems also requires you to have good self-awareness (so you’re less likely to bullshit yourself) and a connection with your own intuition or internal way of knowing.

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In my practice I also use other decks for deeper questions or broader time ranges. For instance, last week I pulled this set of cards. Two are from The Wild Unknown tarot and two are from the Inner Hue oracle deck (which I like because it uses archetypal images and all of the chakras).

 

a table with two tarot cards and two oracle cards on it with a plant and a small cup nearby

Ace of Swords, Two of Pentacles, Abundance, and Healer.

 

The Ace of Swords is about letting truth lead the way (interesting to be coupled with the Five of Swords, reversed); being courageous and assertive. The Two of Pentacles is about weighing our options, making comparisons, and getting a handle on things while remaining very flexible. The Abundance card is about…abundance, but also just being open, light, and receptive. Then, the Healer card- also very obvious to it’s meaning, but it also felt like a grounding of that energy within myself.

I really had no sense of what this meant, but I trusted that there was guidance in it. Turns out it was exactly what happened last week. I let truth, my truth, the Truth, lead the way in some places I wasn’t opening up to. Into Tuesday and Wednesday I was dealing with work stuff and balancing a schedule that would be chaotic by week’s end. Thursday I figured out how to slightly re-orient my business to make it more profitable. And Friday I spent doing a lot of healing work through clarifying words and concepts and making space for all shades of mental health.

So! Super cool that the cards were kind of showing me the layout for the week. Now, as stated, I don’t know that it always goes this well, but it was interesting to watch the week unfold and see how the cards related to the events. Other weeks, I’m sure, won’t be as clear, but it was cool to have this one just work.

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In comparison to all this, on Saturday I set my indoor bike trainer up, got on my bike, put my earphones in and said, “Please just give me whatever guidance you have.” I hit ‘shuffle’ and started to pedal. This is what I got:

I Like Me Better by Lauv 

I Hate Myself For Lovin’ You by Joan Jett and the Black Hearts

So, this is obviously about 20s Guy. I Like Me Better is his song in my energetic dictionary. I have no idea whether I Hate Myself is to be taken literally or just some piece I missed or what (not that I love him or hate myself for any of it; I think this is about him). What’s also curious is that 20s Guy has been gone for 6 or 8 weeks now. I sometimes think he comes around in stealth mode, but I don’t know enough about him to say ‘yay’ or ‘nay’ on what I see. So, this is very weird that I should be getting guidance on anything about him.

Immediately after this was:

No Envy, No Fear by Joshua Radin

All The Right Moves by OneRepublic

Also weird because No Envy, No Fear is a song I associate with 40s Guy. It’s a very old energy I used to sense he was capable of, but now I know he’s not. (He’s a terrible kind of human: he is in pain, and he causes others great pain, because he refuses to deal with his pain. And he knows it.) The second song has a super clear meaning to me because it’s about a particular aspect of the place we used to work together. So, I think this is a message about his work and his feelings for it. (I called him out on something a few weeks ago and since then it’s been very interesting to watch is behavior; he’s playing games he doesn’t understand and it’s kind of funny.)

[Complete aside but interesting here: one thing I have learned from 20s Guy and 40s Guy and a lot of the married, hetero dudes I know is that once a guy is satisfied in his relationships, he doesn’t seem to bother other women. I have sent much good juju to 20s Guy that he would either find his person or be put on the path to her; I hope his absence means it worked. 40s Guy is still unhappy, I would guess, based on his behavior. If he was happy, he would be focused elsewhere, he wouldn’t give a shit about bugging me. Human hetero men are so weird and so interesting.]

Then:

Just Like a Chap by Mr. B The Gentleman Rhymer

Too Lost in You by the Sugababes

Crack the Shutters by Snow Patrol

Ah, these are all about my husband. Just Like a Chap is most definitely a song I associate with him and only him*. The other two are relevant to our relationship (Crack the Shutters is one of my favorite, playful love songs; totally reminds me of our first, very poor, years together).

So, this is the ‘guidance’ my iPod gave me. Because of what the guidance was about my husband- either pointing towards how he’s feeling about me or towards more love and depth in our relationship- I suspect that the other songs have something to do with my relationship with those dudes. Maybe it’s also just simply an indication of where they are at, how their lives are going. I don’t know, but I’m willing to learn by listening to this energy.

In cases like these, I tend to let things play out and see what happens. I’m not making any big or definite decisions based on what I’ve been given for guidance. If I was concerned about any of this, I would ask the cards or the Ipod a more specific question and see what came up (I’d probably also do it over a series of days to see how things averaged out). I have also wondered if the iPod is slightly less effective than it used to be because I’m hanging out with the tarot cards now. Shifting connection and energies isn’t always a clean process.

Learning to read tarot cards, their guidance, has been a fun experiment so far. I will definitely keep going with it. The tarot cards are really just a symbolic map through the Hero’s Journey (or, Life), and I like that idea. My iPod has a lot of variety, but it doesn’t have a specific map like the tarot does. (But maybe that’s something to play with, as well- finding a song for each tarot card. Ack! Fun! Imma do that!) I hope that with time and practice I will get better at reading the cards, their energy, and sussing out what that all means in practical terms. Until then, I’m still part science and part woo woo.

Hope you’re doing well, fellow travelers. See you again Wednesday.
Big love,
Joanna :: xoxo

 

*’Chap’ is a sub-culture that enjoys a return to some of the more refined times. You can read Gustav Temple’s How To Be Chap, if you’d like to know more. It mostly involves a lot of tweed and putting it together in well-curated outfits. The Chap Olympiad is also fun to look at.

 

 

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Modern Hymnal: We Belong

I haven’t thought about the modern hymnal for a long time, but this song came on the radio tonight, and I knew I wanted to add it. There probably should be a whole section in my modern hymnal for songs about rain; I’ll have to write that post sometime.

Tonight we had a lovely thunderstorm at my house. The sky was almost a charcoal gray, waiting for the rain to finally gather itself into fat drops and begin the short deluge, like angry water balloons splashing all over you. There was lightning and thunder and when it was all done the eery yellow light that seeps from the ground and gradually opens up to the sky as the clouds part. It was the kind of perfect rain that makes the heart of this Seattle girl feel at home in this strange land.

And Pat Benetar’s wonderful song was playing while all this happened. Always a favorite and glad to add it to the modern hymnal.

What’s in your sacred, personal hymnal, friends? What songs always delight you? Or fill your heart? Or remind you of something important, beautiful, or lost? I wish we could sit down together and talk about it.

 

Photo by Joy Stamp on Unsplash

 

We Belong

Many times I tried to tell you
Many times I cried alone
Always I’m surprised how well you cut my feelings to the bone
Don’t want to leave you really
I’ve invested too much time to give you up that easy
To the doubts that complicate your mind

We belong to the light, we belong to the thunder
We belong to the sound of the words we’ve both fallen under
Whatever we deny or embrace for worse or for better
We belong, we belong, we belong together

Maybe it’s a sign of weakness when I don’t know what to say
Maybe I just wouldn’t know what to do with my strength anyway
Have we become a habit? Do we distort the facts?
Now there’s no looking forward
Now there’s no turning back
When you say

We belong to the light, we belong to the thunder
We belong to the sound of the words we’ve both fallen under
Whatever we deny or embrace for worse or for better
We belong, we belong, we belong together

Close your eyes and try to sleep now
Close your eyes and try to dream
Clear your mind and do your best to try and wash the palette clean
We can’t begin to know it, how much we really care
I hear your voice inside me, I see your face everywhere
Still you say

We belong to the light, we belong to the thunder
We belong to the sound of the words we’ve both fallen under
Whatever we deny or embrace for worse or for better
We belong, we belong, we belong together

We belong to the light, we belong to the thunder
We belong to the sound of the words we’ve both fallen under
Whatever we deny or embrace for worse or for better
We belong, we belong, we belong together

We belong to the light, we belong to the thunder…

| Songwriters: Daniel Anthony Navarro / David Eric Lowen |

Find the video here.

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G’night from a happy girl, sitting in the rain.

Big love,
Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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Kick it up!

a male figure from behind as they dance down the middle of a street

Photo by Andre Hunter on Unsplash

 

Because in these next 24 hours, you are FREEEEEEEEE!

This weekend is full of energy, my beautiful beasts. Friday was the 13th- often attributed to bad things (go look up ‘triskaidekaphobia’) and horror movies- is actually a day full of feminine energy. Both Venus and Freya are associated with Friday and the number 13 is connected with the lunar year (13 cycles) and is associated with death, rebirth, and creation- all realms deeply connected to the feminine.

I celebrated the feminine energy by watching Footloose (the original, the only, from 1984) with my family. You might not think that’s a very feminine movie, but it’s about dancing. We often associate dancing rituals with women, but of course that’s not the whole truth. Men dance, too. I was reminded how important dance is to men and to connecting with other humans. (I wrote some ideas about that, here.) And I also felt really grateful that I grew up with films like this, where men were not afraid of their sensuality, or of dance. Putting those things in your psyche, in the psyche of the collective, is important- it makes men who dance feel ‘normal.’ And we need that.

Footloose had a big impact on me, seeded many things in my own psyche. I was 10 when I saw the movie and five years later bought red boots just like Ariel had in the movie. They symbolized freedom and rebellion to me. I had a lot of years to go before I actually rebelled, but those boots were part of my identity and I was reminded of that on Friday.

I was also reminded of what a great soundtrack that film had- it’s listed at the end with some notes. I pulled out the CD and listened to it on repeat today. Good memories and good music.

So, it isn’t just Friday the 13th that’s happening this weekend. Mercury in retrograde ends tonight. And I could not be happier. I mean, I learned a lot. I actually feel like a combination of a butterfly and a supersonic jet leaving a cage at Mach 1, but I’m glad to see this phase come to an end. (And sorry to be vague, but I’ll talk more about that soon. I have some things to finish first. I will just say: some stuff got real clear and I’m making choices in alignment with that clarity.)

And that means you have a clear 24 hours until the new moon in Aries tomorrow night. I’ll put up some info about that tomorrow. Apparently, it means focused changes. I am ready for that.

But this is just to say: with Mercury in retrograde settling down (there is still a bit of the energy left for the next couple of weeks, but much less intense) and the new moon not quite yet here, we have a place to breath and ground and center in our true selves. Take it and run with it.

How? Be kind and gentle with yourself over the next 24 hours. If you’ve been dealing with something hard, let go a little bit and relax. If things have shifted, or you know they need to, hold on to that knowledge, but take a break. Do something fun. Get outside (if the weather isn’t shit). Breathe and nap and read and chill. And maybe dance a little. Let the space of this next day feel wide and deep and let yourself be held by it. Be a little footloose and fancy free.

More tomorrow!

Big love,
Joanna :: xoxo

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Footloose | Kenny Loggins

Put on your red boots and go for it.

 

Let’s Hear It For the Boy | Deniece Williams

God bless Willard. He has the courage to change.

 

Almost Paradise | Mike Reno + Ann Wilson

I swear that I can see forever in your eyes.
[You know who you are.]

 

Holding Out for a Hero | Bonnie Tyler

Where have all the good men gone?
And where are all the gods?
Where’s the streetwise Hercules to fight the rising odds?

Not that I need saving. This song makes a girl thirsty, though.

 

Dancing In the Sheets | Shalamar

Love is always born on a chance
So wrap around me and baby let’s dance

Mmmm….yes.

 

I’m Free (Heaven Helps A Man) | Kenny Loggins

Looking into your eyes I know I’m right
If there’s anything worth my love it’s worth a fight
We only get one chance
But nothing ties our hands

I fight for what I love and desire.
And heaven will help a gal who fights her fears.

 

Somebody’s Eyes | Karla Bonoff

It’s part of the soundtrack (meh).

 

The Girl Gets Around | Sammy Hagar

She knows what she likes
I got what she needs
And one of these nights
We’ll both make our moves
We’ll cover some ground

Weirdly, this song, and the movie, have made me think more deeply about what I’m telling my son about dating. I am encouraging dating before sex (I always did, but I’m more committed to that as the standard for him now than before). Because how else do you know someone really wants you (and not just an orgasm)? You gotta date ’em. Go to dinner, just the two of you. Go to the movies. Hold hands. Make out in the car. Let desire build, see how they want to connect outside of sex, see if they’re into you. Play games (until you don’t anymore), but date first. Anticipation makes for better sex anyhow.

 

Never | Moving Pictures

You can never never never ever hide your heart
Don’t you ever ever ever ever try
If you don’t give your heart wings you’ll
Never never never ever fly

So much truth here. Don’t hide your heart. It may get broken, but let it fly. That’s really the only way to live and love and learn.

 

 

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Full Blue Moon in Libra

Oh. My. God. (or Goddess.) Tonight is not only the full moon, but also we are in the beginning of Mercury in Retrograde and I forget how ungrounded and uncentered I feel during that time (I am forever editing old posts in MiR because I cannot decide what I know or knew or want to say or anything. Ugh.) I have to remember to not do drastic shit in MiR. Just lay fucking low. But, Mercury in Retrograde handed me my ass again in the most beautiful way anyhow, so…more about that tomorrow.

And, it’s a blue moon because it is the second full moon in a calendar month. These don’t happen often and we’ve already had one in January. Obviously, 2018 is going to be a very unique year.

So, Mercury in Retrograde, along with the Full Blue moon and I feel like we should all just go back to bed for three days and not do anything at all. Which is a fine Easter ritual, if you ask me; it’s what Jesus did, after all.

Here’s what I got for you about tonight’s full blue moon.

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Chani Nicholas writes:

The full moon comes with a hefty square from Mars and Saturn. Squares to and from these two tyrants have been a major theme of this lunar cycle thus far, and continue to be. This full moon has a way of articulating any overwhelm that lies just beneath the surface of our schedules.

Libra looks for balance in all things but, this lunation, the scales are tipped. Balance may not be a practical goal to strive for so strive for something a little more plausible given the current climate of your life.

A little understanding goes a long way. A little care can help to soothe a build up of stress. A little thoughtfulness can help to reset your relationships and your responsibilities. With Venus in Taurus as ruler of this full moon, its important to praise the goodness that we have access to and remember that the worry we have can be momentarily put down in exchange for an opportunity to embrace some pleasure and love. 

 

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The Goddess Circle offers her concise take on things:

Trust in what is coming

Don’t get caught up in what hasn’t shown itself yet

Get ready for change

Don’t sell yourself or your  needs short

See things as they are in relationships

Thing before speaking or acting (ha!)

Watch risky behavior

 

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She Who Is offers this:

Mystery, magic, and mayhem. Whether powers are use for good or evil depends largely upon the purity, wisdom, and integrity of the will invoking them. Psychic and intuitive abilities are magnified, trust your first instincts in any situation involving personal risk or relationships. This moon’s energy may draw out past affairs unresolved with a temptation to overlook what went wrong in the first place. Resist believing in what you hope rather than what you know. 

Expect false reports, strange occurrences, and events of intensified karma. Weaknesses here will stem from the desire to be loved and accepted; do not merely settle for someone else’s psychic munchies. Adopt self love rituals, treat yourself as you would a lover, and sing your soul with positive affirmations and the knowledge of who you are. Integrity is the watchword, both in your own actions and in those whose influence you allow in. Take steps to not only protect, but to lavish and adore the child within. 

A reminder that we are all evolving at an accelerated rate, with healing crises and unusual body issues occurring in many. Now is a good time to realign with the values of what you put into your body, from both a physical and spiritually-nutritive level.  When all else fails, remember: you know too much, and are too good for, tyrants and twinkies.

 

I’ll be right here, if you’d like to join me.

Photo by Fleur Treurniet on Unsplash

 

And one of my favorites, The Sky Priestess:

Mercury Retrograde´s prominent role during this Full Moon brings back the past in a way that influences our choices for the future.

I´ve noticed that themes, questions or events that occurred when Uranus was at 12-13 Aries (2013-2014) are coming back to the fore. These degrees correspond with Mercury´s movement in the build-up to this Full Moon.

I feel that we are also being asked to look at the karma arising from events that occured when Pluto transited 7-8 Capricorn (2011-2013).

This Full Moon asks us to look at the questions that we, as individuals and a collective, have been wrangling with for the past 8 years.

Have we found a true, just, equitable way to find balance in our personal lives?

Our families?

Have we found a career or vocation that will ultimately lead to the creation of a worthwhile legacy ?

These are times in which the pause that Libra brings to the decision-making process is priceless. Think things through before committing to any key decisions at this time. Remember to consider the basic, practical needs of life and how best to secure them.

We´re asked to remember to stay rooted and grounded in these times of change.

You may want to postpone major decisions until April 30th, when Mercury will return to 13 Aries. Let the dust settle before coming to a conclusion. (Just after the Full Moon in Scorpio)

Her retrograde enables us to consider and re-consider the teachers, paths, paradigms, countries, philosophies, astrological and other divinatory systems we use to help us make sense of the larger Cosmos we live in.

There´s a lot going on and intellectually deconstructing it all isn´t really going to help for the moment. There´s so much yet to come.

Make the best decisions you can based on the information you have, postpone key decisions for a month if possible.

Know that the Universe is up to lots in the background.

The full picture is yet to be seen. Even if you have to make a strong decision in the present moment, steer away from judgment and condemnation. Focus on getting your basic, practical needs secured.

Major seeds have been set in this decade.

They are beginning to unfold. 

 

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Ya’ll. Seriously. Let’s go back to bed for a few days.

I know we can’t. We have our lives to live and certainly this moon phase is about taking care of our responsibilities- a little bit each day, keeping to ourselves, and trying to stay as grounded as possible. And, apparently, staying away from big or high-energy decisions.

The Witches Box has this practical advice for today:

There is no such thing as balance. It suggests an equality of time investments, of feelings, of a pie that very neatly subdivides all aspects of your life without a single hair, crumb, or letter out of place. We need to let this nonsense go. We exist in a dynamic seascape where our lives undulate like rolling waves in the vast ocean. Sometimes it’s more of one thing than the other, sometimes it flattens out for a rest, but it’s never static because life isn’t static. And part of being intuitive and tuned in spiritual beings is about paying attention, being responsive and adaptive to things as they start to roll.

Permission is needed to just Be as you are throughout what is happening in your day today. This permission has to come from you. We can’t look, feel, and be perfect all the time and this means that we are not always going to know how to behave when things are overwhelming or feel “out of balance.” Give yourself room to wing it, be messy, not know, and be a jumble of all the feels.

Set time aside to pay attention. Check in with how you feel, what is running through your mind on repeat, what your body and its sensations are telling you. It’s these details that give us an idea of how we are doing with the “dynamic balance” of our lives. 

 

That is enough for today, lovelies.
I hope to make time to post tomorrow about how I found out I was a witch and a monster- Mercury in Retrograde giving me her best.

Big love,
Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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On Repeat

Ya’ll I was downloading some music this weekend and realized I did not create ANY playlists for myself in 2017. What. The. Fuck.

I date and name my playlists and there were none for 2017. Granted, it was a tough year. And I didn’t download much music- I needed my old favorites. But music is a source of so much joy and creativity for me, I was really stunned by the fact that I didn’t make any playlists last year.

So.

Since it’s my last day of being 42, I got a little playlist por moi and por vou. It’s the stuff I’ve had playing on hard repeat (meaning, 20 times in a row or more) for the last few months. They say INFJ’s like to do that- play a song on hard repeat- but it’s not usually my style. I guess I’m changing.

Here’s what’s been keeping me musical company.

Intro | The xx

This track is only 2:07 minutes long, but I could listen to it on repeat for a good long time (which is basically what the people in the link did- awesome). The rest of the album I don’t care for. The Intro, though- yum.

 

Into the Ocean | Blue October

When toxic masculinity gets you down and you want to commit suicide- that’s what this song is about. Only it’s the loveliest way to say those things (almost Alt-J levels of wordsmithing). Let the rain come down. (Also: dude’s eye makeup is sexy af.)

 

On and On | Stephen Bishop

For three weeks I was all “…she just keeps on tryin’ and she smiles when she feels like crying…on and on…” This song is an aspirin when your heart aches.

 

On the Dark Side | John Cafferty & The Beaver Brown Band

Played this 15 times in a row while I emptied the dishwasher and moshed at the same time. (It can be done. Don’t break the dishes.) ‘She’ll never know just how I feel…slip to the dark side, across that line.’ I’m gonna cross that line someday, I just know it.

 

Life is Beautiful | Vega 4

Soft and sweet. A good reminder that life is complicated but also so very beautiful. There are miracles.

 

Sunday cereal with iPod and insulin pump. A good life.

 

Tiny Dancer | Elton John

Who doesn’t want someone with pretty eyes and a pirate’s smile? Lovely. Always lovely.

 

Somebody Else | The 1975

This is one of the cruelest sentiments ever: I don’t want you, but I don’t want anyone else to have you, either. And yet, this song makes it sound palatable. I, myself, could never do that or claim that- I either want you or I don’t. But I get how it feels. The song is clearly a walk through bittersweetness, which is my favorite emotion, so it gets a pass on cruelty.

 

I Like Me Better | Lauv

This song is full on pop, but I really love it. It reminds me of when my husband and I were falling in love- he made me feel like I was my best self all the time, and that it was easy to stay there and be that way. When someone makes you feel like that- lit up, good, whole, accepted – don’t let them go. It doesn’t happen very often.

[For whatever reason, though, the energy of this song doesn’t belong to my ‘falling in love’ feelings. Some songs have people attached to them or ideas or information- this is what happens when you’re in touch with other realms. And when I spin in my whirling dervish ways to this song, the face of N always shows up. No idea why; I’m not calling him in. It’s just that his face is there when I open myself the alternate dimensions of the music. Weird, but true. If I had to guess, I’d say it was something to do with the energy of when we first met- in the summer; the image when I dance is always full of sun and his smile. Beyond that…I don’t know and I probably never will.]

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This is what has occupied my mind and heart for the last few months, loves. Hope you enjoy something here, too.

All my love,
Joanna :: xoxo

 

 

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